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So I have BIID which is a mental illness where you want to be disabled example amputating a leg in my case I have always wanted to be blind. You are probably thinking how selfish I am because sure, blind people don't wanna be blind but it's on my mind constantly. Ever since I was young I hated my sight with a passion I have never told anyone in fear of judgement. Everytime I walk down the street I feel like people are staring at me constantly and light hurts my eyes I feel like I'm in a nightmare. I tried to research everything on it but my case is so rare there's only one story about a girl who put chemicals in her eyes to make her sight go away. I don't wanna lose my eyes or anything like that I want to keep my eyes but be blind. It's making me so depressed and it's all I can think about it's going to the point where I hate myself everytime I wake up and open my eyes and I can see. This isn't some scheme for social security either I have enough money I just wanna live life happy. This illness is ruining my life I'm too scared to tell a therapist cause they will just think I'm crazy which I'm not this is a real thing people go through. In my mind blind people are the ultimate people they can love someone not for looks but for personality and I think that's beautiful. I won't be at peace with myself until I am my true self, blind.
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Hello, I wanted to offer my advice though it probably won't be very good. You are so much more than your illness you are more than being blind and you are more than what people think of you. If you want to be that is your choice I have no judgment but, I want you to know that it's not who you are and you shouldn't let your sight define you or others thoughts worry you. Your amazing the way you are and yoy would still be amazing blind, just be safe and ask for professional help. It just might work. And it's okay to be crazy we now liv e in a world where normal is crazy.
ReplyI might get hate for this but it's like how Transgender people have body dysphoria so this must be a living hell for you im so sorry you have to go through this I hope you find help and information good luck.
Replymy opinion -> you say you feel as though evryone is staring at you ... and you hate it .. but if you go blind .. people WILL stare at you bc that is just how judgmental ppl are these day :/
ReplyIf they are blind though how would they know people are staring?
Replyyou wouldnt .. but ppl would ..
ReplyI guess it's not more about people staring at me but more I feel like no sight makes me happy I can't explain it in a way anyone would understand I have been this way all my life.
ReplyThey say that those who have lost their sense of sight have an increased sense of either hearing, feeling, smell, or taste as a way for the brain to compensate for the missing sense. To be honest blindness can very much be incredibly debilitating, especially for those who were born with sight but lose it. However, it might be interesting if you performed an experimentation of blindness by, for example, blindfolding yourself for a day to experience to some degree what kind of challenges and benefits it can bring to you. It is only a short term alternative but maybe it would be insightful. Blindness, though possibly very debilitating, can actually be a blessing in a way. It depends how you see it (no pun intended).
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