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Okay so 2 days i confessed to my ex from like 2 years ago..
we stopped talking as one another do when they break up for like 1 year..
then this day he came back to me just checking in i guess? turned out he still loved me.. well he claimed so.. but yea well i just didn't wanna be with him.. although i wanted to be with him.. i just didn't wanna dissapoint my friends and family bc they truly didn't like him, they didn't like to see me get hurt either...
but anyways i just couldn't be with him.. because i just couldn't accept the fact that i might like him still.. which i obviously did (this might be one of the most confussing letters i've ever written). but yea well i just let him be, for what it was, lol.
2 months later we started chatting again, because after i said that i rather not talk to him because he was still in love with me, i it was a kinda awkward time you know.. but welll we started chatting again..
and ofcourse those fucking feelings for his beautiful voice, his cute adorable bear face and his amazing personality got me again.. THEY NEVER SEEM TO GO AWAY TT, i guess i just started to realize that i actually might stilll could have feelings for him... which is weird bc wtf, why would i still have feelings for someone i broke up with almost 2 years ago..
so we just kept on talking like everyweek multiple times.. and well he has a girlfriend now for almost 5 months now.. he is very happy with her.. and we bscly share everything with each other.. so they just had problems together you know so he just asked me for advice and all, and as dear me did, i gave him his advice he needed.. so they were on good terms again.. we were talking about it and i just broke down.. i literally didn't know anymore how to even make a fake smile.. luckily he didn't see me because it was just over messages that he told me... but fuck it just hurt that he was being so happy about being together with her..
a day later he asked me what was wrong.. so i didn't wanna tell him, bc well obviously that would become very awkward.. but he kept on telling me that it was okay to tell him and that he always would be there for me no matter what.
so eventually i told him, through messages again bc i just couldnt say it straight into his face that i might just have feelings for him you know.. god im so ridiculous.. what the hell
so.. yea well i told him, ended up being a 10 minute long audio message :/
but yea since then he didn't reply anymore.. and im just really worried.. what if he doesn't wanna talk to me again?? or well maybe he. is just busy with work and school and all and with his girlfriend lol... i don't even know why i came clear to himmmmm OMYGOOOOD but yeaa it happened :/
i'll see what happens between us :c
im sorry for this confusing letter :c
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your ex is playing games. If he has a girlfriend what is he doing talking to his ex-girlfriend? He's confused and doesn't know if he's still in love with you but he's dragging the other girl along too. I've been in the exact same situation as you and as much as it hurt me I had to let him go. My ex would take advantage of how comfortable he was with me. He would use me to vent about his relationship but then I would see him happy ass hell with his new girl. He's playing games and you are worthy of someone who won't do that to you.
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