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10/22/2018
12:27pm
This may come out strange and paranoid but hear me out.
Would it be odd to say I don't feel as though I have any privacy, not like how I use to feel before. I get a sense that my privacy and private life is being exposed and for some bewildered reason, it's not only when I'm out in public. There's this eery feeling I'm being spied from my device too, not necessarily from the government, or some conspiracy theory. It is something else...and it bothers me enough that it scares me. My thoughts can go through everything over and over again, think rationally about it the whole picture. Pictured different reasons on the situation and see if it's what it truly can be. The problem and concern that's brought upon it.
Doesn't feel right and I know something is off for a long time now,haven't grasp what it could be, and It's making me go crazy within myself to be feeling uncertainty about what's really going on. What if I'm not being made aware of something that could possibly be done to me and can have a serious negative impact in my life.
I don't believe anybody is courageous enough to come forward if they knew something, tell me the truth and have a full understanding of my situation. I have every right to know if my privacy isn't respected, it's causing harm and damage towards my life. I'm having this awful feeling that i could be in serious trouble and maybe in danger even. I don't if there's a way out of it because I don't know what to do about it and where to start.
Am I going crazy here? Is there something terrible going around and being done to me? Maybe, a possibility that there's something gravely wrong with me and I need to control it or, is it coming from an outside force effecting me like a disease, spreads and feeds off me causing damage?
I'm filled with self-doubt and uncertainty. Contemplating if it's only me and my unstable mind. Don't understand what's happening with all the really strange occurrences that I have experienced. Some incidences which don't adds up. It makes me feel unsafe, Uncomfortable and stuck. Have this need in wanting to know so that I can handel it in the best solution possible. Figure out as to why this is happening to me and how to stop it. Honestly, I feel stalked anywhere I go out in public and even online. Not many things feel safe as it use to before. I'm left standing alone on this and doesn't seem like anyone could help me without labeling me as overthinking.
Stuck in a state of confusion and questioning myself and my own sanity.if I'm really sick or not. My life looks to be heading in a tragic end and I feel that my life has been utterly ruined where I don't know if I can make it in time to save myself...
I never felt so concerned that things are only going to become worst for me and those around me. I don't know if I can change it or not if I absolutely don't know for what it could be. It's all damaging and taking parts of me piece by piece... I feel lost, violated and dehuminized. Whatever event is the source of this,it's going to kill me in the end and I don't know if I'll make out and escape.
I would need a miracle to get out of this. I need help before it's too late.
J aka _-P
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Replyi feel this and it's strange to see that someone else is experiencing it like me. since i was young, i have thought i was on some sort of tv show. i started saying it was like the truman show -- i was being watched and everyone knew who i was and they were just hiding it. now, i still feel it. when i'm undressing for a shower, i feel like cameras are on me, i feel like people are watching me. when i'm in the car and people look at me, i sense something. i sound self-centered, but that's not who i am. it's scaring me and making me watch my every move and i hate it and i hate it i hate it. i don't know how to get out.
ReplyI didn't experience this when I was young but only as of 3 years now about. Someone who's self centered would like the attention instead of being bothered by it. What have you done about it? I'm pretty much out of ideas on what to do, because I get told I'm paranoid and overthinking when really I doubt that's the case.
Replyive gone pretty numb to it at this point -- it's been going on for a pretty long time. It's not the fear of being watched, though, which I thought it was before. It's more like the knowledge that you're being recorded or something. like i'm so sure that i'm the star of some show i don't know about. the difference is the convinced-ness of it -- i'm not afraid of it, i just know for some reason that it's happening even though i know logically that it is not.
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