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so here's my routine.. it doesn't happen everyday but it happens most of the days...
I wake up either feeling tired or feeling sleepy, mostly tired
I go to school. It's either it would be a great day or the worst day full of restlessness, can't concentrate, suppressing a breakdown.
I reach home then use my phone and gadgets. take note that I still have assignments but there I am stuck with my phone until 9-10pm. then suddenly I would get depressive episodes.. so "how can I do my schoolwork?" I ask myself.
but I would think that it's all my fault. I was careless of staying in the internet for too long than I expected. It's my fault that I didn't do anything. It's my fault that I didn't do anything during a long weekend. I'm useless. I would fail my classes. I'll live alone. I'd die alone.. and it sucks.. because I know I swear I didn't mean to stay in the internet for so long but it's too addicting..
It's addicting to escape reality of all the voices, demons and hardships through my social media and I'm freaking sorry.. because I'm at fault for destroying my life. I've lost all hope in myself...
then I sleep, around 1-2am. then wake up at around 5:30 am to do the exact same thing again...
welp =)
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