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5 months ago · · Depression stress , · Explicit
Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar, Manic and all mental and physical disease can be fixed by love.
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To My Love
After what seemed to be a good day sprouting out of the depression i was feeling this morning, was big misunderstanding...
Something about going to the store and always being emotional.
I know I'm emotional.
Nothing is done the way you like it to be done.
i feel like I am stuck on a crazy roller coaster ride.
This is what I hear from people around me.
I'm too emotional all the time.
I am paranoid.
I am crazy.
I have drama.
I am a monster.
I am SADISTIC!
what the fuck
So many things i didn't know about myself.
That i am.
It is hurting my feelings.
You always love me and then bring up my mother and my sister and how i should fight them
Like that's the only thing i do or even want to do...
Oh yeah, i guess its just so i want to be abused. I have had people tell me that too like its something I asked for.
I need all the answers now or else i can't see a way to live even though my life is so full of live.
So much love shouldn't bring so much hate and anger.
I guess I just have to accept the fact I am bipolar. Its what everyone is saying isnt it? It has what everyone has been protecting me from. Saving me from me. Lying to me to protect me. Now it all hits in my 20s to either kill me or make me the biggest success in the entire world.
The truth is I need so much love
But you are telling me I am always controlling.
My mind is rolling in such hate, anger, and spite.
6 hours, 7 months, 23 years this will go on for and so many fucking tears
but you don't care because that just my shit.
and you mention that I am an emotional basket case.
Maybe I am crazy but there is no way to feel this way with the one you love.
It makes me want to abandon love all together and either run away or kill myself so I can just stop doing and ruining everything i see and touch and think.
I am hurting you and you love me so much, you
want to keep me with you.
maybe i just need to be on my own again. Like I have always been. I didn't have these thoughts of fear, death, and suicide.
I could be by myself where no one tells me about me and all of me.
I shouldn't be around anyone.
I am social anxiety also.
i should be isolated so I can go crazy and not bother anyone i let down.
so many let downs.
They wanted me to live my life and be happy. I did and succeeded far beyond you could imagine in a lifetime.
Now they are jealous and are provoking me to kill and hate.
and they all mean so much to me.
I put my heart into everything I do. Then it goes away and is
invalidated by words because i am an emotional train wreck.
You told me i should just go and suck a young white cock...
like you expect me to cheat on you and leave you.
Then you tell me to leave and go
but i have no where to go.
I dont want to go because i believe in me. And I love you.
But when you go and walk our its different and 'acceptable'
its like you can say stuff to me but i cannot say things to you
its not fair
you hurt my feelings
boo hoo for me you say and mock my cries and pleads for help from this emotional prison.
i ask you to lower your voice and you come up in my face like you are trying to scare me.
you tell me to fight you and challenge you but i will not because i respect you and
i know you will win.
i love you.
Please let me change.
I want to change for you.
I want to change for me.
because i truly love you.
because i truly love me.
No one really understands love. Every human has the ability to love. Not every human can survive it. Its easier not to love and protect yourself. That is not living.
To love is to live fully.
The sex is amazing. The touch is amazing. The kisses are amazing with love.
This cannot be replicated by any other emotion or feeling.
I understand that everything happens for a reason. I understand that I am going through all of this because of my past as a child, my parents, and my up bringing.
I choose life. I want to live on this Earth and heal. I will heal you with my love.
Love Your Love