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What I Would Have Done
4 months ago · · Pain,
What would I have done differently if I knew what was going to happen to the only fatherly figure in my life who truly cared for me? What if I knew he was going to get cancer AGAIN? What if I knew this time it was going to be worse? What if I knew the treatment wouldn't work? What if I knew I'd have to watch him spiral and decay till his brain no longer worked and the person I loved was gone before his body was? What if I knew I was going to have to watch a person I love slip away from me. What if I knew I'd never see him again? what if i knew cancer would kill him in the end?
I would've let him in and stopped being so cold and closed off to someone who cared for me. I would've thanked him and call him DAD. I would've let him know how much I loved him and looked up to him. I would've held his hand a little tighter and hugged him a little longer...