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I’m on the road to death..
2 months ago · · Stress, · Explicit
I moved away to another country with the other side of my family after finding my mother after 8 years of no contact due to my also bc my dad was slightly abusive, but I grew up there and I feel absolutely shit, it’s been I’ve 9 months and everything is harder here. School seems impossible, and I’ve lost basically everyone. Therefore I don’t have anyone anymore. My mother and stepdad are so strict it makes my brain explode with anger... I have a sister now and she is so spoilt and shoves it in my face. My boyfriend is amazing but I’ve seen messages with other girls and him but i have spoken to him about my feelings and how much I care for him but doesn’t change anything, so that’s his trust lost. I have nowhere to turn for help, my family is rude to me and if I try speaking they’ll just say to be thankful for everything I have and others don’t, my father is too abusive, I’m failing school, and my boyfriend is cheating on me. And no one from the country I moved from. I have lost everyone, the choice that I find best is death. And If you are going to give me advice, and the advice is speak to your family.. I had done it, it’s not a choice anymore. Friends I don’t have, boyfriend has his own world going on and my sisters fucking 3 so that’s out too. No where to go, no one to speak to. What do I do? Fucking end it all with a period .