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2 months ago · · Stress,
Hello, to whoever it may concern,
I’m in high school. I feel sad. No, hopeless. Many will laugh since it makes no sense that a teenager can feel like this, but I do. I’ve been constantly feeling like this for a long time now. I don’t really know how to explain this, but I think that I know some things that some adults still don’t know. For example, I realize that life isn’t fair and it doesn’t matter if a person is hardworking. What I mean to say is that, take my parents for example, they work so hard but it’s still not enough. Also, their happiness and health is diminishing. I used to get decent marks, marks I didn’t have to hide. However, nowadays, I tend to get bad marks. Whenever I see someone at Church or a gathering, I feel like they’re going to ask me about school and while on that topic, ask about my marks. I think some people have pleasure in seeing others fail, or maybe it’s the fact that they believe that their sons and/or daughters are better that me. Yes, maybe it anxiety. But I don’t know anymore. I’m sad. I don’t like waking up. I don’t want to go to school and I don’t see the point in being here anymore. I just don’t know anymore. I know this is long, but if you are still reading thank you, just bare with me. I feel as if someone is taking bricks out of my house, or crumpling me down. I know I shouldn’t compare myself to others but it’s hard. It’s hard when people around you are so perfect. Yah, I know. Everyone has problems, but the thing is, not everyone has the same problems. Some people have bigger problems, it’s just isn’t fair. Life isn’t fair and I get that but still..... I just feel something. I don’t know what it is but I hate it. I want to cry and just sleep, I don’t want to talk to people or show my face to anyone, I just want to be left alone. But at the same time I want someone to understand how I feel and I don’t want to cause any trouble. In breif, I’m probably a hypocrite; telling everyone life is okay and that they should enjoy their life, whereas I am just dead inside (cringey, idk). I just don’t know anymore. I don’t know what to do. I just wish a fairy Godmother can just magically appear and comfort me.