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6 months ago · · Loneliness,
I can't breathe. I'm surrounded by people. They talk and talk and push and pull. They do not understand how it feels, only some of them do and those who do hide it too well. I can hide behind my mask. But I won't. I don't believe I am strong but I will try. The mask comes off little by little. Maybe they don't understand now that they have seen me, my feelings, my true face, self. No its not that they do not understand, it is that they do not care. They ask why I hurt, why I want to leave, maybe to a better place or no place at all. They do not know it is their fault. They do not want to know. After a while they know, they do not like it and they try to help. It worsens my feelings but I feel hope, not just a hint but a ray of hope, like a sun that shines my heart opens only a little bit. I will not trust just yet, until they prove that they care, which they do. I hate and hate and cry inside and feel waves of sadness but now I have hope. All that will not defeat me. I try, I try more, I fail but I try again. I will not stop until I breathe.