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If there was a time I ever needed God, it's right now. I haven't gone to church in a little over 3 years and it's starting to hit me that I need my religion. I'm used to going to church every Sunday, bible study every Tuesday, choir rehearsal every Wednesday and Teen Night with the youth pastor every Friday night. I was constantly thrown at the feet of God and I loved it. Nothing makes me happier than listening to gospel music or hearing a good sermon from an anointed preacher. I also remember the Saturdays my father would hold his own personal worshipping time in the living room. My little sister and I would only participate most times so he would rub the anointing oil on our foreheads in the shape of a cross. We loved going to the bathroom afterward to look in the mirror and watch our crosses glisten in the sunlight reflecting off the glass. I miss those times. I miss when my entire family was together and all we did was go to church, eat, and be a family. That hasn't happened in 6 years and my heart is tediously breaking from it. I can say that my heart has completely broken but that'd be a lie. And honestly, that'd be much better than the long, grueling process life is taking me through right now. My heart likes to break slowly. And I'm slowly dying because of it and I've never felt a pain stronger than this ever in my life. I don't know what to do and yet I do and yet I still don't. Fml man.
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It's simple... run back to God! He's waiting for you. He's not angry. He's not disappointment. He loves you and he wants you back! Plan a date to walk back through those church doors and let nothing stop you! You got this! No need to jump through hoops. No matter how long you've been gone... you can always come home.
ReplySorry! I meant He's not disappointed.*
ReplyI have been 2 times since my post!! I’m getting a little better and closer but also feeling closer to giving up all at once... my heads is just spinning around at this point
ReplyHow are you doing now?
ReplyHi there! How are you doing since your original post?
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