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Suicidal thoughts, wont do it, but work in the field
2 months ago · · Depression
I was looking for a paper to rip (by the way when I typed rip it said RIP) to bookmark multiple places in a book. I just so happened to flip to a place in a journal that if I didnt meet certain goals by this January I would end my life. Is God telling me to end my life? I have all of these signs. I just dont know anymore. I'm still not a parent to my children. I still dont have a home. I'm still not loved. I'm 33. What a waste of space.
I'm not going to commit suicide. I've had thoughts of suicide for years now but it's getting old. Does anyone else experience this? And please, I'm really not going to, I've been dealing with this for years, I work in the field. No one talks about it so I dont know. It's just killing me.