What are you looking for?
5 months ago · · Here It Is, · Explicit
Not giving anyone more chances,until I see something to be trustworthy and beneficial.
No more giving the benefit of the doubt. No more justifing and trying to sympathize with other people's shit behaviors towards me. Always blaming myself for everything. Always self pitying and guilt tripped to the point I'm beating myself down. Enough. I have given enough to those who didn't even deserve it. I don't owe anyone fuck all, nor have I ever asked for anything but basic respect. Enough with the ragged doll and punching bag treatment which I shouldn't have to put up with. Not going to be made to feel bad for anything petty either. If nobody would feel like shit for what they do to me.
Why should I again?
I need to give a damn about more important things in my life and it's not selfish.
Anyways, nobody has the right to control me, my thoughts and feelings, but me. I can do whatever I want with my body and life. If nothing that's helpful is being offered, then there's no reason for me to break my head over it and get nowhere. One of these days I'm going to end up throwing a punch back (metaphorically speaking)
Tired of the dishonesty.