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9 months ago · · heartache,
hi. it's been 6 months since the first time we did chat and everything. i don't know how to tell this but why do we talk like lovers when we know exactly we would never be something more? i always wanna end this up with you and remind myself that we are nothing more than friends who talk like lovers. i could easily admit that i'm in love with you more than you could ever imagine. i love you and it hurts. it hurts because i knew no matter how much promises you would say that you're gonna stay by my side, in the end, it would be nothing but false hopes. You keep telling me the sweetest things i've ever heard to my ear everyday, every night, every hours and minutes that we have spent in our daily basis night call before the sleep. You even do all the dreamy boyfriend things to me. Why did you do that? Are they for real? If that so, why did you disrespect me by going out with other girl yesterday and told me that you got headache and felt too sick to take the phone and let me know what you were doing that day? you lied about that girl. if she is only a friend, are not we too? and why did you lie instead of telling me the truth that you go out with her? is it counted as cheating? is it ever cross your mind that i'm something more? or am i, since day one, only a joke to you?