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6 months ago · · fire,
We stroke the match and began to ignite a burning fire between us
We tended to the fire, never letting it burn out.
Somewhere along the lines, instead of kindling our love together - we added fuel.
We sat there and watched it burn
Neither of us was ready to put out the flame
We burned together.
We tried to hold on to each other and protect ourselves for what was to come
However, we were doomed
Neither of us had the courage to put it out
But then, it hit me.
I sat there burning from the hot fire and realized I didn’t have to feel this pain.
I stood up and saved myself
But, I should’ve tried to save us both
Darling, what did we expect?
We both sat there and watched as the flames engulfed around us.
Do I need to remind you that we started the fire?
I sit here and look back at the remnants of the disaster.
I look back and think of all the memories we shared that have just burned to the ground.
I begin to wonder from time to time how different our lives would be if we decided to put out the flame, if we decided to fight.
However, life isn’t about thinking about what you could’ve been
The past is meant to teach us to grow
How are we to grow if we keep looking back onto something that we watched fall apart?
The fire still burns within my heart.
I know for certain that flame will never cease.
I will never let go of you, love.
I just have to find myself; the girl that would never let her house burn down.