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6 months ago · · I hate people,
I’m tired of people being in my life. I know that humans are social creatures etc. but I simply just don’t feel comfortable being around people. There’s this part of me that just wants people to leave me entirely alone. If I were to be alone it would be beneficial for me, no more loud noises, no more judgment, no more stuck thoughts. I could be who I want to be without people telling me who they want me to be. I wouldn’t feel alone either because my loneliness couldn’t get worse than this, and honestly I don’t feel that feeling very often. Sadly I can’t be alone, no one has ever left me alone throughout my whole life. I will never feel like someone is not there and that’s the problem, I can’t talk to that person, I can’t describe the pain I feel or the frustration. I can’t hug them because well, I hate them, I don’t want to hug them. I want to hug someone... There are no someone’s I could hug. I don’t know if I’m making any sense but I just can’t figure out how to naturally care about the people that people normally care about. Relatives, friends, etc. The only people I care about are strangers, people I have never met or hardly talked to, those are the only people I want in my life yet they aren’t and I’m stuck with people that I don’t even trust.