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I can’t sleep at night
6 months ago · · sleepless, · Explicit
There’s this nagging thing in my brain, I have to do this and that to feel complete, to get myself to be relaxed. I’m not okay. I keep trying to tell people that and no one understands me, I hate trying to express my worries.
I can’t pretend that while I’m lying in bed trying to get some sleep that I don’t have a point to. I wish I didn’t have to sleep, I wish I didn’t have to live.
I. Am. A bad person. I can’t convince people, all I’ve done is convinced myself. You think that this could be nice? Only thinking about death and pain.
Things don’t work out, they never will, my life is meaningless. I can’t fix anything, I can’t go back and stop this form of thinking about how I’ve fucked up, how my past doesn’t seem like it’s linked to the present.
I have lied so much, used people to get things and for what? Nothing lasts, everything feels like pain. I want to wake up everyday with some positivity but I can’t because I don’t sleep at night...
I sleep during the day.