What are you looking for?
6 months ago · · Thoughts
As I listen to this song, tears slowly build up in my eyes. I look back on everything that has happened. All the bad all the good. My biggest regrets. My biggest accomplishments. Yet I realize I'm no where near where I want to be in my life. I have had this dream for years. I feel like I'm not putting enough into it. At the same time I feel overwhelmed by all the responsibilities I have as an adult. I feel my dream will just become a hobby on the weekend and I will never actually succeed with it. This song also makese realize how alone I am. Haven't dated anyone in over a year. Haven't really hung out with anyone In a while. Don't have any friends left. My mind is running rampant with all these thoughts. I'm not the person I want to be. I don't have anything that I truly need. I have all the material things in the world that I could ever want. None of it makes me happy. I still feel so empty. Life is just a long road where sometimes going just a mile up the road can take years. So much traffic. So many distractions. God I wish I never thought this deeply.