What are you looking for?
6 months ago · · Understanding,
Trying to understand your thoughts,
And your words.
I don’t want to be selfish,
So I am going to give this to you.
Space is what you need,
But it hurts me every second,
And still- I give it to you.
I have to come to an understanding,
That you might end us.
After having promised to never leave,
After having promised that you would never give up,
I don’t know if that still stands.
Not talking or texting,
No “good morning” or “good night” texts from you,
Not walking together,
I ask myself over and over,
How long this will continue for,
Until you end us,
Or until you come back to me.
I hope that it is the latter,
But nothing is certain,
And I have to be strong for myself.
I have to be,
I will never stop loving you,
My love might change over time,
From lover to best friend.
And when that happens,
If we break…
Then I hope that we can still be good friends.
I hope that you’ll let me take care of you,
I hope that you’ll let me be in your life,
But it won’t be the same.
I don’t want change,
I don’t want any of this,
But it’s time I stopped being selfish,
And started helping you.