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6 months ago · · Loneliness,
best friends are a relative concept. to me, at least. there is just so much expectation inside my head. perhaps i have watched and read too much fiction, so my mind is addled with all the "should have". "a best friend should have acted like this", "a best friend should have said that".
i am not certain i have someone i consider a best friend, honestly speaking. there are people i talk to on a regular basis, people whom genuinely like. but it never felt too right in their company. i enjoy comfortable silence, and it is something that i desire, something i use to determine who is my best friend. i just don't think i have really felt that way with anyone.
when people don't reply to my messages, it does not bug me as much as i think it should. do i not care enough? and that's why they feel okay dropping me as well.
best friends, true best friends, feel like unicorns to me.