What are you looking for?
6 months ago · · Relationships, · Explicit
I look at the profile, trying to figure things out for myself because I just know there’s something you’re not telling me. Not only is that tearing me apart, but every detail I notice does, too. It makes my stomach turn, making me feel sick. My tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth, knowing that I can confront you, but not having enough courage to do it.
This is probably the most excruciating part of my life. Us not being able to tell each other things, and the fact that I love and care about you too much to hurt you, while not loving or caring about myself enough to stop hurting myself because of the things you’ve done, but of course you don’t notice. As usual. But I allowed all of this to happen. Fucking toxic.