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Will this feeling go away?
6 months ago · · Need Advice · Explicit
I didn’t love you at first. In fact, you liked me a little more than I liked u. I slowly developed feelings for you and we tried dating but after a while we realized we were better off as friends tho we did agree to still do stuff as if we were in a relationship. It probably wasn’t a good idea. My feelings for you deepened with time. When at first it was just craving you slowly turned into me just almost falling asleep in ur arms forgetting that my parents don’t know I’m at ur house bcuz they’re a little strict. I didn’t care everything felt right in that moment. But u stopped feeling that way. When I found out, it felt like my heart just broke. It felt like I completely shut down. It was a roller coaster of thinking I could get over u. One day I’m ok thinking I’m over u. The next I’m crying my eyes out about how you’re not mine. The loss of being in ur arms and almost falling asleep. The loss of ur lips on mine. I realized I didn’t want u for sex. But so much more. I wanted you. But I can’t have u. My solution went to hooking up with other guys even tho it’s not the same. I get high so I don’t have the feeling of loss. I’m not the same. I have to force myself out of bed and I have to force myself to do all the necessary things I need. I’m in love with you but I can’t have u and I have to get over you. I still don’t know how. Ur an amazing friend. I can’t get space from you. So what do I do? What should I do? Please help me.