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4 months ago · · Depression
I hate depression especially on nights like this that feeling of having your chest crushed.
The heavy feeling on your shoulders, struggling to breathe like your drowning the need to cry and scream but can't because you feel trapped like no one understands you and the need to curl up in a ball in a corner away from the world I could go on and on. I hate being alone with my thoughts they take a dark turn I want to die I deserve to die. thoughts on knives going across my neck or hanging. The random need to step out in the busy road or falling off a building it hurts a lot and I hate it I hate my self for thinking like this I take meds for this but that dark spot is there and won't go away always trying to shut myself away cut away feelings to the point you feel numb I don't understand what some emotions are sometimes. well, it doesn't matter I'm just ranting.