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I was lived in Dubai for many years, as a student and then a teacher, when I was in my first year of teaching I went out. I went out with my friends and lost them. I had drunk enough to feel it but not to forget.
At the end of the night when everyone was leaving I couldn't find my friends and I was talking to a small group of people. The guy offered a ride home, felt safe but definitely wasn't in the end.
I got in the car and we started driving - himself, me, his friends in the back (boy and girl) - we were heading towards my place and then next moment we weren't. We were in the desert.
I don't know how to describe it as it still feels like it didn't really happen but next moment he was on top of me and I kept asking him to stop, started crying and tried to push him off. But I was scared, in the desert, had been drinking and no idea where I was or how far from home. He raped me which I don't understand because I honestly don't think a girl crying is a turn on. But it happened and then he started to drive again (when he had finished inside of me). I never thought I would allow it to happen I always imagined I would shove, fight and push them off stopping it. But I was so scared.
He drove and when I recognised my area I found my voice I said to the girl in the back to come with me and be safe, I told the rapist he was disgusting and then he kicked me out. The best thing. Though no knickers or shoes.
I am now 2 years on and it feels like yesterday but also feels like it never happened or happened to someone else. I think it is ruining my life slowly eating away at it. When I do something bad at work I just think it doesn't matter because I have been raped and it is punishment enough. But at the same time no one knows. Not my mum, therapist, friends, no one. Will it one day hit me like a bus and ruin me? Has it ruined me forever because I can't make connections with people? Is it the reason? I don't trust anyone.
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Why didnt you tell the police??
ReplyI have lived in dubai too, for 15 years, and you know right all rapists get the highest level of punishment?
ReplyI'm just baffled, wondering why didn't his friends stop him and help you? Were they still in the car when the rape happened and they didn't do or say anything? Were they too scared, drunk to help you and prevent this ?
I don't understand why nobody did anything.
ReplyIt must bw some local who did it, but dubai is so strict towards rapes, how couldnt she have told the police.
-not the author
ReplyThat too but still. It doesn't make sense to why people who were there in the car, didn't stop it and say something. Are people so selfish to the point that they wouldn't help someone when they clearly see they're in trouble or see something wrong is being done to them by someone else...
Like, what is wrong with people???
ReplyBecause not all humans are good.
Replyif you drink in dubai cant you get in trouble with the police as you were drinking?
ReplyNo, you are allowed to drink as long as it isn't any holy day.
Replyif you drink it is fine - but if you report a crime and youve been drinking it does not count and you can find yourself in trouble. you can drink in venues with licences and if you have one but outside those walls you are not protected.
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