What are you looking for?
I need to breath.
2 months ago · · Stress, · Explicit
I want to be free.
This pain is holding me back.
I’m pansexual as I now realize. I’ve fallen for many who opened my eyes but I will never date. I will never date because of the colour of my skin. The way my face is round and doesn’t match my body. The way my parents don’t want me to disgrace them. The way my parents want me to have an arranged wedding.
The fact that my parents are innocent and refuse to listen is something I can not fix. I don’t want to lose them, my family but I will never be happy, I understand we’re clashing but our culture will not let me out. I don’t deserve to wear this hijab but I will be a disgrace if I take it off. My heart is always in pain from family but twice as much with my loved ones. It hurts but they say the pain will go away. Even if I’m 18 I don’t wanna run away. I wanna be with my family, that’s why I worked hard. I’ll forever be in pain no matter where I go cause deep inside I’ll never be with the one I want and none of these reasons will be why we aren’t together. It’s always gonna be because you never see me that way, never saw a future between us even without our backgrounds.