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It's Just One of Those Days.... You Know?
4 years ago · · self-isolation, · Explicit
There's not much to say here. Like everyone else here, you just want to write because you and I and everyone else here just want to send our thoughts somewhere, cause if we don't, it gets stuck in our head and all of it is just disorganized. It's bothersome. It feels uncomfortable to just leave our thoughts like that. So I'm here to just say what all of you are (hopefully) thinking.
So it's just one of those days. Like the title says obviously. It's just one of those days that you're alone. Not alone in the sense that you need human socialization, hah, you just got off the phone with Becky about her shitty relationship with her mom. Or you just came back from hanging out with your best buddies. I'm not talking about loneliness like that. I'm talking about loneliness in the sense that there's no one out there to really talk to you. To love you, to nurture you, to really care about you in the same way you care about.... pretty much everyone.
You put on some music to help you focus on goals you wish to do, you try to really be productive, take your mind off on things that you don't want to think about. Maybe a glass of wine. Binge watch that new Netflix show. Or maybe just talk to your friend about random shit you saw.
But it's not making you happy. Nothing is. And no one is going to come by and lift you out of the dark, black abyss you're stuck in.
Of course, you must face the dark abyss before you can reach the light and happiest state at the end. But it's the state of mind now; you tell yourself you'll get out of it, of course, but it's just the state you're in now temporarily that sucks.
And yeah, it sucks, it's one of those days. But what can I do.