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How to forget something that never was real
4 months ago · · Need Advice
I live in a foreign country I traveled to study and work. During my last months of studying I met a girl that was crazy about me, I liked her as well but not in the same way she did and we began a relationship that has been going for a year until now. After I finished my studying I moved to another city to start my career. But one month before I left,I met one of my girlfriend's friends, she was so much charming and although I loved my girlfriend I felt attracted to her, I started to think about her and always wish to meet her again which happened few times during this month before I had to leave. After I left I knew that I have no chance to see her again. But the feelings are still stuck with me I can't get her out of my head. It is been 5 months since I left and I still wish for some miracle to make me see her again. I feel bad because I should have these feelings only to my girlfriend from one side, and from the other side I feel I am Torturing myself thinking about a girl that with almost zero chance she ever thought about me and I have no chance to be with her. I wish if i could just talk with her or tell her anything about my feelings but i would never do that and probably let her feel low about me. I tried to forget her but sometimes she is coming to me in my dreams and remind me again. Since I started working my life is a bit boring and I got lack of friends and it is too much painful to just go to the past in my mind and think about something that never gonna happen. I feel like an awful human being who never appreciate the good people and stuff in his life. I feel I am in too much mess and I don't have any hope in my life and anything to look forward to. I am not a person who tend to be sad and mostly I am not but in the emotion side I never had any sense.