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3 months ago · · Suicide,
I've been suicidal since I knew what life and death mean, since as far back as I can remember. It doesn't matter how hard I try this time. I see the cycle that can't be broken, that will always be there, forever. It's my life, and I just can't change the way this stupid f*cking path goes. I'm lonely, I'm sad, I'm fighting so damn much inside, but I'm still struggling. I've been struggling since I was a young child.
The falls always seem way worse than when the great days are "better". The people in my life don't let me share my feelings with them. There's no one, I HAVE NO ONE!! I just want to die again. Let me give up for good this time god, since that's all you seem to hear. I seriously feel like that's what you want anyway. Just let me go, because I'm stuck. Stop teasing me and messing with my head. Just let me die!