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I never asked other people about this because I was just self conscious and worried about how people would react or they might see me in a different way after I ask them. But am I the only one who forces myself to be happy, and to fit in with everyone. I don't know, I don't like people worrying about me, but at the same time it saddens me when no one cares about me. I don't want people to think that I'm sad, so I always keep smiling. It's like, for me, I'm not supposed to be sad, I'm supposed to be the SOMEONE to be there when somebody is sad. I'm supposed to be the shoulder you can lean on. But at the same time, does it really make me the SOMEONE if im already the person who is in need of a someone?
I force myself to smile at bad times. It became a bad habit of mine. Smiling at everything. Smiling out of everything. I even look at the mirror and practice my smile so that it looks more...well, a REAL smile. I practice my facial expressions to make it look real. I overthink conversations that might reveal my feelings inside. It's just that being fake happy became like a part of my lifestyle and it sickens me to think that I, myself am not even happy. I dont know if I should stop this smiling nonsense of mine. No, how do I stop this smiling habit of mine. Even when people make fun of me, I take it all as a joke and them make fun of myself, smile. But deep inside it is hurting me. I've made this smiling habit of mine such a huge thing in my life that I feel like, I've become a different person. Im perplexed, Idk what to do. Should I stop it? How do I stop it? Help...
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ReplyThank you..
ReplyI think everyone does this a little. I know I do this a lot. I have noticed that this fake smiling does sometimes lead to actual happiness. And though I still want to make other people comfortable, I have also learned to be more honest with them even if it means they don't like it (it's always been an issue with me, me caring too much if people like thins or not because somehow their opinions affect me).
All I can tell you is that its a process of trying to be more honest. And a process of not being too hard on myself with my own judgements. This pressure to be SOMEONE (I am talking about me and it might not be the same for you) is more internal than we realize. And most people never even notice how much we go through to be this SOMEONE and that makes it all the more difficult to deal with. And we are caught somewhere is the middle of feeling pressurized but not having anyone to put the blame on.
So if this is what its like for you I would recommend being honest about one thing that you are feeling everyday. Even if it means you might hurt someone. Even if it means you have to take back words you just said.
Hope this helps.
ReplyI see, thank you so much
ReplyHi
I totally agree with you I smile at everything even when people make fun of me. When I told one of my friends I was an asexual he said " Lol I'll google the cure for that" I laughed but it hurt me and I just withdrew from him. My dad always says mean shit...what do I do...smile. They ask how are you an d I say " I'm great"
How was your weekend " Perfect I say" At some point I considered suicide. No one knows.
For me music helps me when I feel down.
Talking about my feelings is something I can't do, I feel like people will be mean like my friend was. So I just toughen up and deal with it.
Do what works for you, you can meditate or even exercise.
Find the one friend that you trust and talk to them only and see how you feel when you talk about what is bothering you.
ReplyI see, thank you so much
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ReplyThat sounds terrible, Iām sorry you go through that
ReplyI force myself to smile too...if i don't, i could be in a lot of trouble and peopoe would be nice and all but only because i am depressed..i hope ur life gets better thoguh and at least once have a real smile :)
-Anxious Teen
ReplyIt's heartbreaking when your smile and scream become synonymous. You can lie 'I'm okay', laugh and joke, all the while courting the thought of suicide in your head. No one knows that you're hurting, that you're breaking, and once they receive the magic answer 'I'm fine', all the questions stop and youre left alone with the monster inside you, the monster that makes you smile.
ReplyYou're not the only one who does this, it's surprisingly a common thing, and i do it too. Although i have a person who knows that i'm not actually constantly happy and they know when to not push. I think you should find yourself a friend who is willing to be there for you when you're feeling down or nothing and still act the same towards you because you're still you, if only a little more honest about how they're feeling
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