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I need to tell SOMEONE this, or I’ll explode.
About four months ago, me and my family decided to get rid of social media and internet because some....things....have been going on between my siblings and I while using them.
Some time during June in 2018, by getting accepted as a voice actor for an animated show on YouTube, I had found a group of online people that wanted to be my friend.
We clicked immediately, but after some time, we began to ONLINE DATE each other, and talk about inappropriate topics that I shouldnt’ve been talking about.
(I started thinking, after learning about LGBTQ+, that I was Pansexual. That I loved anyone who loved me for who I REALLY am. I confessed to my mother that I thought this, and she supported it. My father, on the other hand, yelled at me, told me I was too young to decide this, and told me that he thought it didn’t make sense if a girl(me) didn’t just love a boy.)
My parents found out about my online friends, and they gave me a big talk. About trusting to online people, and this conversation topic.
Social Media was gone for good. I never even said goodbye.
The thing is, even after the social media incident, I actually still wanted to make an art career, and if I gave up making designs(adoptables) and commissions for people, that would drive me insane, so you know what I did?
I went against my parents’ orders and got on some online websites where I could make some kind of profit out of my artwork, and some smiles to go with it. I feel really good, but there was also a big, deep sinking feeling inside me that won’t go away; a feeling that I’m backstabbing my parents by doing what I feel is right.
Whenever my parents asked me if I ever encountered that...person...I talked to on the internet, I always felt like my gut, heart and throat get squeezed really tight, and that I was choking on them.
On the first hand, I would have LOVED to tell my parents that I wanted to do this, and that I WOULD NOT give up my urge to make designs(plus art) and give them to people.
On the other hand, I felt like if I told them, even though they never have, they would beat me until I threw up, and they wouldn’t care for me anymore. That I would be the one child in my family who doesn’t follow their dreams, get love, and be successful.
Life sucks, and everyone knows that. All I hope is if you read this, you realize how lucky you are that this didn’t happen in your life. If you’re talking to people about sexual topics at a young age, you should tell them that you shouldn’t be talking about this stuff. I learned that the hard way.
I don’t care what my parents say about LGBTQ+. If you think you’re Gay, Lesbian, Pansexual, or any other sexuality, DO NOT, I repeat, DO N O T feel bad about it. Be who you want to be; live your life as best as you can. You only have one try at life, so make the most of it.
I am eternally thankful for this website. I can share my feelings anonymously, and help others while I’m at it. <3
Have a nice day, everyone. Thanks for reading.
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You didn’t say how old you are but keep in mind that internet people are not your friends. You have no idea who they are, so you definitely shouldn’t be telling people anything personal or identifying.
ReplyI think sometimes life can be really hard, so having online friends can be helpful. I would know, I have some online friends. But, honestly, I think online dating can be getting a little too far. These people can be your friends, but you still don't know who they are outside of the chatroom. As for you being pansexual, I totally support it, you go girl. And for the art, never stop doing what you love. I think it's amazing that you're going online and creating art for you and others.
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