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y=my other two best friends later on
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hi. i seriously dont know how to start of. basically,i had the best friend anyone can ever have.highlight the had.so much of shit happened.she told me that she had cancer.lung cancer.i was so damn surprised i wouldnt stop crying because i was so afraid to let her go.we were friend for a very short amount of time .for 2 years.but it felt like centuries.we loved each other sooo much.we were the best friend that people envied.we wrote a song together called stronger.we would jump up and down when we found a new tune or amazing lyrics.(btw we were in a boardinng school together in the same house so that explains how cllose we were. our houseparent literally told us that we have to mingle with other people to and not be together all the time.we like never ever fought literally.i know that saying where they say that best friends are even closer if they fight like shit but it wasnt like that for me.suddenly 1 year after bieng there for eachother, we started getting close to other people.we didnt groe apart its like someone else joined us and we became a group. this happened after we became popular.we became popular because she started dating one of the popular guys.they actually loved each other a lot. one day she came and told me that her boyfriends best friend liked me. i didnt believe her obviously.but she promised and we are the kind of best friends who value promises a lot.when we were younger we made our own promise called the middle finger promise.you do the same thing like a pinky promise but its with the middle finger.i know its dumb but the whole freakin school started using it for some random reason.anyway lets not go off topic. so i believed that he liked me because she promised.then i have no idea why but i started liking him. my x's boyfriend and i are like siblings so he said that he would tell him if i di not want to and he did and he rejected me.i was confused.later on we became really close to two girls.we were all best friends but there were like pairs in the four of us which you would know.later on long story short x started to get chits telling her to kill herself that she does not deserve any of us.by that time the popular guys and us 4 became really close.we were kind of like a group.then when we went for excursion she still got those chits. then on the last day of the excursion y and the rest of our "group" came up to me and x's boyfriend (x was not there) and said that x was the one who wrote all the chits.they took the chits and fit them all in the torn parts of her notebook which they took and they took it the day before. thats why yesterday we got the chit with different paper which was from the book she borrowed from one of our escorts. so we were like come on we should be there for her since she is our best friend even though she did this to us. z knew it since the starting of the excursion but did not tell me or x's boyfriend because we would be hurt the most and obviously. there were lots of of other proofs but it will take too long to say all of them.finally i believed it.and i started to doubt other things that she told me.i went and talked to the guy who i liked and he told me that he never liked me and then i went and asked x's boyfriend if he said that to x he said that he never did.and that is not something you lie about.then i realized that she broke her promise and lied to me that someone liked me and tried to make me like them just to get rejected 5 months ago.so i wondered if she lied 5 months ago how much could she have lied about.she lied that her boyfriend watches porn and that he is desperate for her.she lied about when they got together.she told me that they were dating 1 week before he even confessed to her.she lied that she used to be a district badminton player. worst of all she lied that she had cancer and that she had a dead sister.i still really loved her and we figured all of these and many more one by one later on.so back to when i first got to know about this no one had the guts to go tell her cause she was the kind of person who would scream her guts out if someone blames her for anything.so one of my friend went alone and we could see them talking and all of us were just freaking out.we heard her screaming at her and saw y putting her head down and listening. when she came back one of our teachers were making an announcement on how we were going to leave early from our excursion. x was talking to another on of my close friends and when y came up to us she told us everything.she said that x told her that she already found out the person and she and that girl (p) already confessed and x did not tell us cuz it would be too much pressure on p.so y said that if she could ask p if she did it and x said no.and in the announcement x was talking to p.after the announcement y asked if she could talk to p again and she said ya but only with me.then x came up to me and asked me if i was against her too.i started crying and said im sorry but yes. and then she was like why and i told her about some of the stuff that i knew she lied about and then both of us started crying and she walked away saying that she did not lie about those.then i believed her she said why would she break her promise.then suddenly she fainted.everyone was shocked.my other friend and i carried her to the car while some other people helped us.our teacher let us go with her to the hospital with her.then we saw a cut on her hand and realized that she cut herself. she started chanting my name while she was unconscious.i started crying again.then she woke up in the middle of the car journey and she looked at me for two seconds saying why didnt you believe me and she started crying so hard for another two seconds and fell unconscious again on my shoulder. it was kind of scary.then in the hospital we found out that her bp went low to 70.my friend and i both believed her.our teacher used to be a psychologist so she asked her what would make her happy and both of us were huge fans of bts so we watched some bts videos together that made her smile.then we asked her did p really do it.she was like no but she asked me if she could take the blame because she pitied me but i didnt do it.so we believed her and they said that she would be leaving in the middle of excursion to go get some stuff done.so she came back to get her bags and she would be leaving later. and when i went back my friend and i came back.we told everyone that it was not her and its not possible that someone would fake like that.then p came to me and said im sorry but she forced me to say that it was me. btw p is actually a very innocent girl who would do anything for anybody she is super good at studies and she gets used most of the times cuz she can never say no to anyone. then while she was telling me x came and said i appreciate it to p as if she was the one who volunteered and when x said that p squeezed my hand so hard.anyway after she left we went back to school and thats when we were starting to get to know all those lies. tthen she came back one day and we did not mention anything but she said that she has been going to a psychiatrist and then you know what happened.the principle called y and me over to her office and in the office where there were the teacher in the car when she fainted,the principle, our coordinator,and x's mom.they asked us about what happened and we lied and they caught us and they literally got everything out of us. they told us that whatever you tell us will help x. and it was the freakin principle in front of us.it was so damn scary.then she went back home.for 1 month with the psychiatrist and she came back again and told us that she had child psychosis. that she lies and does not know when she is lying and she actually believes that it is true.she said that they took lie detector tests and all that. y wouldn't stop doubting her. she said to me "do you even know how lie detector tests work.they go by your heartbeat going by how scared you are to tell the truth but if she believed that the lie is true she wont be scared and they wouldn't know its a lie because she would be confident with what she was saying.now y was very close to me and i loved her like shit. she helped through those times she literally woke up at 3:00 in the morning to console me.she kept telling me that she is scared to lose me cuz she thought that i would leave her for x.she didnt want me to be with x and x was going in to depression and she harmed herself sooo much because she thought that she would never get me back. i loved both of them so much but i really did miss x a lot.so i started talking to her and y stopped talking to me and would cry that she has no friends when i was in fact spending more time with her. then the next day x left school. her psychiatrist told her that she couldnt study here anymore.then she was off social media because of her freakin psychiatrist.she asked someone to give me a letter and she was thanking me telling me how much she loved me and she wrote the lyrics of never forget you by zara larrson. we used to have a freindship neclace since 2 years ago and she kept it in her pocket the whole time and now when i see that charm from the necklace(i half of the heart) i miss her like shit.
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