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5 months ago · · Depression, · Explicit
I am so lonely. I am alone at work. I am alone at home. I feel like I work so hard and am successful but I am just siloed off by myself all the time. I am married and have been with him for 10 years but we don't even talk. We don't see each other. There is no physical or emotional intimacy. I just feel like I am stuck.
Stuck in a job where I love what I do, but I hate the loneliness, the people and the toxic culture. Stuck in a marriage where I am alone and have to bare all the adult responsibilities and nothing gets done unless I do it myself or ask for it to be done. No sex in months. No kissing in months. Saying I love you is just tacked on at the end of the conversation like a habit.
I don't think I have ever been this unhappy. There is no light at the end of the tunnel. Nothing to be excited about. Nothing to look forward to.
All of my friends have gotten married and have children. I have no children. I can't have children. With that change in dynamic, we've mostly lost touch.
I am just alone and horribly unhappy.