Getting over her

Shes the weird kid with weird interests with mental health and attitude problems. She never loved me, and Im just another thing she's leaving behind when she goes to college, like a kid dropping off old stuffed animals. Times change, and while she has too, If she wanted to call me, she would. If she wanted me, she would let me know. It's okay to feel attached and admit that I have feelings for her, but also realize that they arent realistic. If she were my age, Im sure i wouldn't have fallen for her. Her age is her advantage, it's clear that I'm a happier, healthier person without her.

I cant help but think though what she thinks of all this. what would she do if I told her how I feel? That I love her? Ha, she probably already knows.

It's no matter, because however much I love her, it doesnt affect whether or not she loves me. These feelings will fade, and I have so much else to do. Better jumo into my hobbies, because jumping in her DMs inst a possibilty.

wait a second, she has her WHOLE summer off too! Shes not busy with school anymore! School's been out for 3 weeks and she hasnt even tried to contact me! Actions speak louder than words. Message received, loud and clear.