What are you looking for?
4 months ago · · Relationships
Perhaps in a world filled with so much loss, so much disconnection, so much misunderstanding, it would behoove us to learb the art of letting go. Letting go of things, ideas, people...
I have a hard time with this, especially letting go of people. I have so few real connections in my life I don't want to let people go. But when I am sitting there, wondering what value someone has in my life (and I don't mean this in a derogatory way), maybe that's the sign I've been looking for.
...in and of himself, I am sure he has worth. Perhaps he is nicer to his family. Probably. Perhaps he just doesn't understand me. Probably. Perhaps he does and just doesn't care. I don't know. I just don't see what possible value I bring to his life, unless its just as someone he can take off a shelf when he gets bored and remembers I'm there. And what real use is that? I want to be in his life. And I want him in mine. But we consistently go round and round, he draws me in and then hurts me and I go through this existential crisis. I can't keep doing this.
So please, if we are not meant for each other, can we just please let each other go?