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Self-Harm, Seeking Help
4 months ago · · Depression,
I have been self-harming for a while now. I've never had to get stitches or anything extreme, but it's still a big problem, and I know I need to stop. However, I have a very limited social circle, and I am introverted. Even though I know I desperately need support from my friends, I find it very difficult to bring up the subject. I know it's a little manipulative, but there is a part of me that has been trying to think of ways to make them bring up the topic first. Normally, I self-harm on my legs, where no one can see it, but I've thought about switching to my arms. I mean, if I'm going to self-harm anyway, then I might as well do it in a place that will facilitate community support, right? Does that make sense or am I just being ridiculous?
I certainly don't want to promote the notion that people self-harm in order to get attention, but is it wrong to use the aftermath of a self-harm as a cry for help?
And, please don't say, "Just talk to them." I can't explain why, but it seems impossible for me to start this conversation. (Yes, I have tried many times.) Maybe it's part of this debilitating depression, or maybe it's social anxiety, or maybe I'm just plain-old scared and unsure. Anyway, has anyone had any experience with any of this?