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Should've stayed a lesbian
4 months ago · · Stress, · Explicit
Okay, so, I have nothing against the majority of guys, but maybe I should just stick with girls, since guys aren't working for me. Firstly, the first ever crush I had, yeah her heart was stolen by a guy who hated me for no reason. I got punch in the back of my right rib by a guy, and so, I scratched his arm to the point where it bled. For a while, everyone was scared of me because of it, especially the boys. Then, because of some narcissist, I'm inside therapy because I'm apparently "too violent". No, I'm not too violent, is just that I don't back down when some kid messes with me and tries (but fails) to make everyone hate me. Then, whenever I try to make a guy friend, one of the two usually happens: either they deny my friendship in the worst way possible for no reason, or their guy friends just glare at me, as if I'm some type of threat. Honestly, I just want to make friends! And yet, when I try to friend to opposite sex, it's like they're all scared or hate me for some unknown reason. And my dating life is worse because whenever I date a guy, they're either want to kiss me everyday (I don't like kissing people in general), they cheat on me, or they're just plain abusive! Then, my father is a complete control freak and my older brother cyberbullied my friend to SUICIDE! Honestly, I just have had so many bad experiences with guys (more-so than girls) that I just want to have crushes on only girls. I hope I didn't sound like a nazi-feminist, I don't hate guys, I just wished that they could atleast stop with their bullshit. I mean, not all guys are bad, I've been friends with some really good ones, but the ones that aren't and just don't like me for no reason, I just don't get why. Am I doing something wrong? Am I sexist?? Or just all the guys that surround me are actually shit?