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I keep hearing myself loud and clear wanting to end my life. A life that ive never had full control over. Ofcourse i have control but not that much because the mind is my hardest battle. Its not well, i have suffered for so many years with this. I hate it. I don't want to feel like this anymore. Ive tried different things to help myself. Consistency is key but that depends on bow much i am able to push myself to fight it daily. Its so draining. I dont want to date anyone because of it. Ive always feared dating because i can never feel stable within my self. My mind some times switches and i become something i cant control. I become so negative and lose myself. When im better im really good and ready for lifeeeee. Fulll of lifeeeee.it hurtsss sooo muchhhhh. I dont know who i ammmmm anymore. Im forgetting how many talents i have and skills . When i remember it sometimes gives me a reason to keep going. When will this stop. I hate the thought of suicide i hate ittttt. I keep planning it in my mind. I dont want to hurt my family. they have nourished and taken care of me for so many years itl be so horrible to end my self and to put them through alll the painnnn. I love them but i hardly communicate with themmmm. i dont know what to doooo. Im not comfortable hereee on earth. I wish i was well. God pleaseeee help meeeeeeeeeeeeee. Im in painnnn deeep painnnnnnnn. so much anxiety. I feel like a rubbish personnnnn. I want to be hereeeee i dont want to goooooo. I want to help others. I believe i can add to this world but this pain is taking away all the motivation. I need helpppp. i want to stayyy here but its harrrd to suffer in the mind. Please help meeee
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