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Sixteen years.
Sixteen years reflects the amount of time you've been in my life.
These years hold some of my most precious moments.
Spending a significant amount of my childhood wandering the back of a restaurant. Which was, completely unallowed.
But you were the kitchen manager- what were they to do?
The year of my 9th birthday, where you promised you would leave work early to have lunch at the school with me.
I remember breaking into tears when I didn't see you at lunch, just for you to run up and console me, that it was only a "joke".
You were laughing at the time. I, was not.
An infinite amount of memories come to mind when I think of your impact on my life.
Most negatively, I was twelve years old.
Sixth grade.
You and mom decided to start drinking again.
At first, just a little to take the edge off.
This grew into a reliance.
This grew into an addiction.
Our once happy home devolved into yelling and chaos.
Though I'd never been hurt, physically.
I'd been altered mentally forever.
I am now sixteen.
I had supported you in your job change. One that occurred likely two years ago.
One to become a long-haul truck driver. You left us for months at a time, only to come back for a couple weeks, and depart again.
It got lonely without you, but you liked it more than the restaurant business.
We all supported you. My mom, my brother, and I.
It was approximately four months ago, while you were out of state longer than normal.
You'd sent me pictures of the road signs like normal- just as you always do.
Mom called me downstairs, my older brother sat next to her.
She told me that you were divorcing her.
That you'd used your career to cheat on her.
Seven whole months.
I had no words. I was rendered absolutely speechless.
My throat metaphorically cut.
I set my head in my arms, hiding my face. Though no tears came nonetheless.
I think I was in a state of shock at the time.
It was just two days ago that you sent me pictures of Arizona's mountains.
You told me that you would drive me there sometime. You always knew it was my favorite state.
Was that a lie?
Was it just a facade?
I was replaced.
I was replaced with a new family.
You appeared on a new lady's social media.
You two seemed happy together, alongside her kid- my age- and dog.
I haven't seen you since my birthday.
I receive occasional calls.
They're strained, as if you feel required to call every few weeks to ask how life's been.
You have a new family now.
Your old one's been forgotten.
Left in the dust, if you could put it that way.
I hope you have a happy life now.
I will truly miss being a part of it.
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