What are you looking for?
Featured Topics
Select a topic to start reading.
I want to cry. I'm not entirely sure why. I think it's because I have finally acknowledged that the guy I like is not as amazing as I made him out to be. Which is always.... depressing. But, I'm glad I did. There are a lot of cons to this person. And I deserve better than him.
I guess I just didn't want to give up the idea of him. The idea that someone is out there that is perfect for me. Some one who likes me, for me. Someone who gets me. But, the boy does not like me. He's made it pretty clear and I should stop wasting my tome trying to catch his attention. I should never speak to him again. The very thought of it makes me want to cry. But, this is for the best. It's needed. Even if I end up alone, it'll be okay. I deserve better.
It's just... I am so lonely. And profoundly sad. I miss being 17. Which, I never thought I would ever say. And in a way, I guess I don;t completely miss being 17. But, I do miss my bedroom. Laying on my belly and watching a bunch of movies every single day. Crossing off films from my list and blogging about them on Tumblr. Wishing I could be like the people in the movies. In a large city or some small, isolated town. Living this adventurous, crazy life. Feeling happy. I don't think I have ever felt happiness. Or, maybe it's been so long that I can't remember. But, when I was 17, I was NOT happy. And I was so sure that I never would be.
Maybe, that's why I liked that guy so much. Why I held onto the idea of him for so long. Because it made me feel happy. And I haven't felt that in so long. I just.... missed it. I didn't want to give it up. And abandoning him is filling me up with nothing but complete sorrow. I'm really hoping that this is for the best.
If you see a comment that is unsupportive or unfriendly, please report it using the flag button.
More Posts
-
My Timed Entry
I don't know what I'm doing because I like life right and Christmas is so good but I like birthdays better because they are fun and I like them and I like fun b...
-
My Timed Entry#2
Sometimes options are given like love and friendship and people are asked to choose. And they end up choosing one of those. But should we really let go of one a...
Without sadness’s there could be no happiness..
it’s okay if you are sad now. If anything, this guarantees that in the future you will be happy. You say when you were 17 you were not happy. But it doesn’t sound like you were sad either.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that sadness is a part of life. And as easy it is to build up a person in your head, filling their gaps with our imagination.. now you know better. If you want someone to get to know you and love you for the person you are, you’ll have to do the same for them.
Reply