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My Unsent Letter
4 months ago · · brother, · Explicit
Dear older brother,
I simply want to say, I'm so sorry. I've truly been a bitch these past few months since my friend had died, and I shouldn't have put shit on you. I made you from someone everyone loved and wanted to meet to someone that has been harassed by people wanting to protect me, hated by everyone. I shouldn't have done any of that, I should've just sat you down and talked to you. But before any of that ever even happened, you pulled away for unknown reasons, and I feared the worst. I don't want to lose you the second time. I have issues, I know, but that doesn't excuse the shit I put you through. I harassed and bullied you to the point where you almost completely left. Hell, I bet the real reason why you can't come down is because you're angry at me. I'm so sure that you want me to at least give you an apology, but I want to do in person. I'm terrible at apologies, but at least you haven't completely left. You showed me nothing but kindness, and all you did was a small (yet stupid) mistake. None of that or this was your fault, and I don't even know how you even got involved. But, I just want to say, I'm sorry. I'm not proud of anything I've done the last few months, and I hope that somehow, you find it in your heart to forgive me. Until then, I understand you giving me the cold shoulder. Let me at least apologize to you, and somehow make it up to you, somehow. Whatever you want, I'll do my best to try and do it. Who knows, maybe you'll come across this, but until then, I miss you and I love you, no matter what you do.
Forever yours, your clingy little sister.