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Dear Stranger,
Hi. I am 25 y/o and from the Philippines. I am not sure if you will finish reading this long message but if you will, I appreciate it and thank you for your time. If not, it's ok, I understand.
I am currently working and taking my master's degree. I am already done with my pre requisite subjects and I am about to work with my dissertation. I took up master's degree because I wanted to teach. Many of my close friends, colleagues, family and boyfriend feel proud of my achievements however, I feel empty inside. I feel useless. Worthless. Bitter. I'm discontented, jelous, envy. It is true that quarter life crisis exists. And it hurts. It is painful. It is eating me up inside. It is burning my soul..
I am extremely unhappy now because this is not what I dreamt when I was still in college. 5 years ago, my goal was to be in the manegerial position and running my own business. Yet I am still in the entry level and haven't started any business yet. Mind you, this is my second job. How will universities or colleges hire me if I do not have credentials? Aside from all of that sht, I was being shouted and bullied by my superiors in the office. Having units in Master's degree does not make me special. What makes me more unhappy is that my classmates are very succesful. And here I am, a dirt.
I have friends and loving family yet it is still hard to open up. My boyfriend is the only one who knows the dark side of my mentality. Every time I brought this up to him, I cry. Crying is one of my ways to release the monster inside me. But he does not want me to cry. He starts jittering. I always explain the situation still, he doesn't want me to cry. Because of his actions, it became hard for me to tell him how I truly feel. In conclusion, I still cannot open this bottle of emotions to anyone but myself.
I have been struggling with this since 2017. :(
- Lost Hope
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ReplyHey u should not feel so bad.. all of us go through bad times.. have u read the story of a rabbit n a turtle.. they run in a race.. with the rabbit always faster but at the end the turtle wins.. keep moving.. u ll surely achieve great heights .. be grateful for having a great family..
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Replythis made me tear up
ReplyHappiness is temporary and you would never know the good without the bad just try to focus on the positive aspects and just move past the bad.
ReplyJust keep going mate. You can do it. It’s really hard when you’re in that situation, but just take your time and remember to take care of yourself.
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