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People tell you that when you finish school the real life starts and I'm really trying my best, but there is always that one thing that won't let me... Throughout the day everything is normal, but when I sleep I get confronted with a time in my life I really want to avoid. I got bullied, a lot and my entire school years, constantly. I get very real nightmares almost every night, there was one nightmare that I can still remember very vividly. I was in my class and we had history, everyone was laughing, judging and making fun of me, all this dirty looks felt like someone punched me in the chest, I felt wrong there, like I didn't belong to that place... Suddenly a girl comes up to me (the girl that used to bully me) and tells me a lot of hurtful things, meanwhile the teacher does nothing and I'm just standing there, taking every word, suddenly I look at my lower arms that feel like burning and I see cuts and blood, it felt like with every word she said to me there appeared another cut on my arm. tears started to run down my cheeks but no one helped me, I asked for help but no one listened to me...when I couldn't handle it anymore I run outside of the class and then I woke up. I remember that my arms started tingling and everything felt so real that it scared me...I'm in no way someone that ever harmed myself in any way but my dreams are only getting worse from there...I don't know how to stop them and I'm not in school anymore since some years now.
I just wanted to share this, it was really to much to hold in since I'm already having those nightmares some years now, did someone experienced something similar? Is there a way to stop it?
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It keeps coming up so you can face it and move on. Maybe next time(s) you have that dream, make it a point to tell yourself youre dreaming. Then do something to protect yourself, like build an armor on your body and feelings. So that all the mean looks and words bounce off of you, and become something else that boomerangs back to its sender. Say something back to your bully like: im sorry for whatever happened to you that makes you feel like you have to be mean to me to feel better about yourself, but i forgive you. And I forgive myself for not feeling strong enough to defend myself. But that time is OVER. I am moving on now. I am stronger for having survived this. And the rest of my life is waiting for me. I will waste no more time with you here. Then hold your finger up to your lips as in the motion for "be quiet." It may take a little while for you to do this, or it may happen on your first try. Just keep going until the dream changes, or stops altogether, and you feel better.❤
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You just have to remember that those horrible people can’t hurt you anymore. They don’t control you!!! Don’t let them haunt your dreams. You have better things to think about then them.
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