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Its been almost two days, and you havn't said anything. I didnt know you were this mad. Yes I walked out on you without saying a word. But you also let me walk out? No texts, no calls? Not when I left, not the day after, and not two days after?
I miss you. I dont even know why. WTF. When did you creep into my heart? I thought I had kept it pretty well guarded.
And for what? You were gonna act like this anyway? I guess its better to have experienced this now rather than later.
I was really excited for a future with you. I dont know why. I was excited to begin again with someone new. I was slowly opening myself up again, allowing myself to feel/love (?) again. I was thinking of all the couple-y things I wanted with you.
It had been a long time since I had felt wanted. Felt... loved? cared about? I wasnt used to the feeling. I'd gone on dates and talked to plenty of men, but everything was a little different with you.
I fall so fucking fast. I was trying to keep my head straight. I held back on purpose. I held back because I was hurting, I held back because I wanted to like you for the right reasons, and I held back because I wanted to give you a full chance with my heart. And now you're gone and I miss you and I miss talking to you. I feel weird and empty inside. Do you even feel this? Or are you content? Was I nothing but a sexual conquest?
If I wasnt, why arent you here? Why are you mad? I hate that I dont even know whats going on in your head. How did we go from friends to this...?
I cant help but think its all my fault. Maybe if I had stayed and talked, instead of walking out...
But you didnt contact me after that at all. I thought you said you cared about me.
If you cared about me, why didnt you come after me? Why didnt you ask me what was wrong and try to stop me? Why didnt you even pick up anything WAS wrong? Why didnt you message me? Why didnt you call? Its been two days.
And if you didnt really care all that much, how did you expect me to have those feelings and to do anything with you? I'm sorry I wasn't ready. Maybe other girls are, and maybe you just date them instead. It was too soon.
Even know I looked at my phone. I refresh that stupid inbox thinking maybe Ill see the little red icon. But there are never any new messages. I am so confused. Did I really push you away? Was me quietly leaving your apartment unforgivable?
I am really sad.
Maybe I just judged you wrong. Maybe this is for the best.
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