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ughh this seems to cliche and dramatic but I've known this guy at my school for about 5 years (I'll all him Harry) and I remember the first time I saw him I was like huh, he looks like he would be a nice guy to go out with. Obviously, being very young, nothing ever amounted to anything but last year I developed a crush on him. We got on alright, but he was always just a classmate, not even a proper friend. I tend to overshare with my friends, so they knew very early on that I liked him. Things steadily got better as we got to know each other more in classes together, but I felt there was always a distance between us. I'm way to scared to ever confess my feelings to someone or ask them out so I quickly ruled that out as an option. I guess I would just play the waiting game.
Over the years, at different times, he became very close friends with two different girls in my year- both very kind and nice, but both kinda annoying (I am aware I too am most likely more annoying than them). First he was very close friends with a girl I'll call Georgia, she went through a period of time where she wasn't really in an established friendship group at school, so she hung out with him a lot. Suddenly, after a while, they stopped being seen together, and i never knew why.
Last year, he became close friends with the other girl - I'll call her Sam, and they ate lunch together and talked all the time and since they were in the same form class, too, people were quick to assume they were dating. Sam knocked that on the head quickly though, to my relief, as by this time, I had already got a major crush on him. They too suddenly weren't friends anymore, and didn't hang out together.
Recently I found out that both friendships were severed because both Sam and Georgia had developed feelings for him, and i assume that they had both confessed it too since he found out.
Fantastic
Throughout this period, I got a text from a girl in my year ( ill call her Eliana) and she said "hey I heard your like Harry" and I said "what? Where did you hear that from?" and she refused to answer. I later found out she liked him also. Aaaaah great.
This is so muddled but before I properly developed feelings for him, me and Harry had developed a funny inside joke where he said we were married and would mouth " I love you" to me, and obviously I played along. People started to also make the joke, since he is very tall and I was very short, so it would be a funny couple match.
I've had many opportunities I guess in hindsight I should have taken, where I believe he might have liked me back maybe, and i just didn't realise. I'm probably just being a bit big headed though.
Anyway, this year, I have only one class with him - science, and although we don't sit together he asks for my help alot (science is my strongest subject - biology and chemistry in particular but that's beside the point) and I probably make my feelings a bit obvious by always smiling and looking at him. He texted me before the summer break and told me he wanted to hang out with me, as he didn't have very many friends. I said yes definetly and we both said we were free near the end of the summer so we could meet up then. Summer passes and I don't get to meet up with him since he's so busy. I have texted him a few times asking if he's free and he says he's doing stuff but he still does wanna meet up. I asked him again recently to just give me a weekend he's free and he says maybe this weekend but he might be at his dad's so he isn't sure. I reply by saying thats cool and that I don't wanna force him to meet up with me (as I have been a little persistant) and he hasn't replied (he's a slow replier though ughh). This is so childish but I really like him but today at school I got the feeling he was pissed at me - I wished him a good weekend and he either didn't hear me or just ignored me. I had also offered to help him with some science homework and he turned me down with a tired murmur. I think I'm trying to hard to make him like me and its havejing the negative effect. I won't be confessing my i dying love to him (almost two years of crushing) as I don't want what happened with Sam and Georgia.
I think I'm quite a nice girl, I'm clever, mostly quite funny and I think I have quite a wise head on my shoulders, I'm not ugly (not drop head gorgeous but he did call me cute) and he is not a complete stunner either but hes tall, has kind eyes and a kind heart and the cutest laugh.
I am feeling a bit lost right now and I want to persue a platonic friendship with him despite my feelings for him but I just feel like it's taken such a long time to get in this position and I might ruin it if I do something wrong.
So you're all up to date. And that's what's going on right now. Xx
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This is probably a stupid move for me to comment. But I'm just gonna say it anyway.
If you are afraid of confessing, then I suggent you don't. I know you already said that you don't want to confess but I'm just gonna throw it up there.
Your case is actually kind of similar to mine, except that the girl I liked actually ignored me instead of responding. I don't know what I did that caused her to suddenly give me a cold shoulder, but I'm hoping for something in the upcoming event that I will attend in 9 to 10 hours time. But don't wish me luck cuz same as you, I don't want to confess in risk of having a broken friendship.
And the last thing to close this comment of mine, I'm very... very jealous of your crush. I mean I never have a girl have a crush on me, even a small one. It always me having a crush on a girl to realize that the said girl liked my friend instead of me.
Sorry, just want to share somethings. I'm sorry if you are offended or feel uncomfortable because of me commenting.
Replydon't feel bad! it's nice to hear stories similar to mine so i know other people can relate. thankyou for taking the time to reply to my story thing xxx
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