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Self Righteous Taurus
9 months ago · · stress relief, · Explicit
I can’t believe I asked you a simple question: are you willing to compromise? And you thought it made sense to shit on me about the things going on in your life yet again taking the ungrateful approach and then attacking me about it.
Nobody told you to be a procrastinator or the fact that you believe you’re the only person working. (Retail is retail so I don’t get why you were complaining about that) maybe if you would’ve applied yourself in high school you wouldn’t be where you are now.
You chose to continue investing both money and time in a degree that you won’t ever use but are trying to tell other people to go back to school. You’re a hypocrite! When you’re mom is upset you continuously overlook her emotions & call her melodramatic. But when it comes to this Taurus boy - if he doesn’t speak to you you’re on the investigation as to whether you did something wrong or not.
You were the worst kind of friend and I say that because you never listened to me to learn from my mistakes and or experiences - you listened with no purpose.
I laughed when you said that the friendship was reciprocal because it wasn’t hence why we were arguing. But the one thing I’ve realized is that you have severe issues with yourself that you constantly overlook but love calling other people out. For instance, you continued to say that I was boiling kettle but within the last 5 years or in the course of that 9 year friendship - I was the only one who changed.
You enjoyed talking about how other people were so stupid and or couldn’t see how they were making the same mistakes but you’ve still failed to see yourself for who you really are. A chronic underachieving wallower who blames everyone for everything except taking accountability for yourself & your actions.
I even told you that I didn’t need the excuses - I just needed a simple yes or no. The fact that you put your basic mediocre listening skills on the table as if they’re so stellar - but when I asked you what else’s could you provide - you remained silent. When I responded to your comment about negativity and replied: you’re always negative so why are you surprised that things don’t look good to you?
You admitted that you’d rather be stubborn and now I know that you will not ever change. It’s unfortunate when sheltered individuals believe that they have so much to offer other people or love playing the martyr card.
I meant what I said: you chose not to learn from my experiences and that’s why one of us has truly grown and you are the exact person same person I met at 16. What a waste...oh well
Don’t complain about the life that you made for yourself.
It’s one thing to say that you listen when you don’t. It’s one thing to say that you care when you ignored me during my worst time. It’s one thing to act as if you don’t care but then continuously talk about how you’re such an asset to our friendship. It’s one thing to lie especially when you we’re given the chance to be honest. (Karma on me lol)
I learned from this toxic 9 year friendship that you were really holding onto me because you had nobody else until meeting this temporary boy. You have severe daddy issues and are unaware of them. (You taught me to acknowledge mine because I did not want to follow in your footsteps) I learned to live life to the fullest and to be appreciative of everything & everyone. I learned to be grateful of my maker because you only knew him when you felt your world was about to change & you didn’t want anything to.
I learned the importance of knowing your self worth & having self esteem because you fell for everything with no questions asked.
I learned that I should change something if I don’t like it and if I can’t then maybe it’s time to re-evaluate my goals.
I learned the importance of being happy with working towards a goal and not letting life just happen to me.
Most importantly, I learned that I’m an awesome person who’s an optimist.
As a survivor, i fled an abusive household. Dealt with a narcissistic mother and father, two cowardice older brothers and an ungrateful niece who took advantage of my kindness.
I moved into another household where the mother was a narcissist and moved out. Got a full time job & was safe. My car accident changed everything and I still worked, went to school full time, cooked my meals, appointments, presidents honour roll & a mentor. No help with daily chores and or activities but everything always got done.
And I was having a chronic underachieving ungrateful 25 year old complain to me about working a rotational retail job she hated, her feet always hurting, her mother being too emotional and loud for her. Not changing her baby sisters diaper but loving her and not wanting to live with an older sister but will live with a guy she’s only known for 2 mos. 40k in debt for a 3 year degree that took her 6 years to complete because she slacked off & never applied herself & chose to stay on academic probation to get kicked out as opposed to withdrawing.
I wish I never waited this long but I am so glad I ended this.
TOAST! I’ll have a gin & tonic 🤗🙂