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I remember like it was yesterday. My thoughts were racing. Saying no one cared and I would be better off dead. I was crying like crazy and my heart was beating out of my chest. I had dumped the pills into my hand. They were sitting in my sweaty hands and I was about to take them when all of a sudden I threw the pills down and I jumped onto my bed. I was crying and I couldn't believe what I was just about to do. I texted the crisis text hotline to try to calm down. I ended up taking a nap after texting the hotline and until my sister got home from work. I woke up and I was just quiet. I didn't tell her that she almost lost me earlier that evening. She would have probably the one who found me if I would have attempted suicide. I just tried to act normal. The next day I couldn't hide my sadness any longer. I needed to tell someone that I almost killed myself less than 24 hours ago. They called my mother for me because I could not tell her myself. And when my mom brought me home I needed to tell my sister what was happening and what happened the prior day.
Telling the ones you love the most that you almost killed yourself is the hardest thing ever. You don't want them to treat you differently. You don't want to lose their trust in you. You don't want them to have to worry about you. You want to fight this monster alone but you can't. When you are fighting against yourself for your own life you need support. Even when you feel alone there will always be people who care.
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good for you, you're strong and you will fight through this even if it's hard. Stay strong for you and the people who cares about you:)
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