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PLEASE GOD KILL ME
8 months ago · · Suicidal Thoughts · Explicit
i've been well i am not proud to say things have been going downhill i lost the race for class president in which i put so much time on i was working on this for a year and i lost it just because the teacher didnt want me to win and now everybody hates me my bff and i had a big fight and we dont speak anymore and she tried to fix the stuff but my 2 other bff who dislke her said i was better of without her so i listend to them mostly because i have almost 11 years of friendship with them and i wanted to stay with them and i acted like i didnt care and didnt want to b with my bff so i lost her and another friend my two close friends didnt even care to vote for me as pesident and said th boy who was my competition was better just because he gave them home-work once and there all i gave was thrown in the trash and it hurt so much knowing that my friends dont even have my back or consider m as a friend and it hurted so much my other close friend said that ive been growing distant from her and thought i didn't want to be friends with here but i lysm cause she is my friend and i had to tell her this but i just couldn't explain that i have depression and thats what has mostly making me to keep distance rom her i think i am a worthless person and i dont desrve to live i have no friends they all hate and at the only thing i am good at that is learning and painting i am the fricking worse ate that to know i used to be so god and i loved doing that and noww noww i am just a piece of shit and i dont deserve to live i look like a fat whore and i am he worse people hate me dont speak to me treat me like shit think i ama whore and a bad person and i just want to die today the teacher told me to say the lesson and i didn't know it cause i didn't learn cause i am a fricking lazy deppresed bitch so everybody was like:"Look this year she is not an straight A student anymore" and i jut can do it i just cant i want to die everyday and it hurtsso much i dont know where to ask for help and i think i am bothering you with this because you have your own problems in life and i am just somebody just being annoying and only speaking about my life i am so sorry
(sry for the grammar mistakes to)