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Not even a year ago I lost my innocence. You destroyed me. I couldn't leave my house for about a week because I know you were still in town. When you finally left I began to go out more... but not without checking over my shoulder every five seconds just to make sure you weren't behind me. I try to move on but you're always there waiting. Waiting for me to screw up... Waiting for me to let you in... Waiting for me to go back to you so you can hurt me again. I remember when it happened the day you invited me over....We were just hanging around... walking around and suddenly you asked me to come inside with you. That you would only be a minute and you need to grab a water bottle because it was a hot day. I agreed, not thinking anything of it and I came inside with you... I heard the door lock behind me and you pushed me against the wall.... I started to tear up I asked you why. You didn't say anything. This entire time that you stole my innocence you didn't say a word... You just looked at me with your dark eyes and didn't say a word. I screamed... You put a hand against my face and I couldn't breathe and then you undressed me and you hurt me over and over again... I want to move on... I met a boy. He is very sweet but I can't get over the fact that you hurt me and then left without saying a word. He's nice to me.... He cares for me and I want to tell him what you did to me but I can't.... I don't want him to know that looking at him hurts me. I don't want him to know that every time he hugs me I see you. I see you every night in my nightmares. You pop into my head and I fall to the ground. Nobody knows how I feel... Nobody knows that you killed me... You Killed the little girl that I was... I had to grow up early. I just want to be normal and not have to deal with what my therapist calls post-traumatic stress syndrome. I don't want your stupid face in my mind anymore. I'm going to move on. I'm going to be happy and if you decide to return.... Well it'll be a whole lot of hell waiting for you...
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