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Since I can remember, I have always been restricted from so many things by my parents. I basically live in a cage. I'm a 16 year old girl- I don't like to socialise or go to parties or wear makeup or do any 'normal' teenage things, simply because my parents never let me in the first place. I don't even have Netflix. Now I've just grown to live without much reliance on these things and more on the introverty kinda stuff; Books, movies, art, music, things like that.
i admit that I watch, read and write too many adventure stories - stories of unlikely heroes, mystery plots, crime stories, young modern romance, superheroes ... I love it.
But as I lie here on my bed in the dark, the more I think about it: Where's MY adventure? All i do is wake up, go to school, come home, watch or read something then sleep. Then I do it over and over again.
People always say stuff like "Life IS an adventure! You never know what comes next!" and that's true, but because of all the fictional stories I've seen or read, I feel like I'm expecting more from life (I'm still waiting for that radioactive spider bite lol) .
Even if it's just a bit out of the ordinary - I wanna walk through dark streets alone in a glowing neon city. I wanna travel the world and discover new things with an inseparable group of friends. I want the guy I've been crushing on for 3 years to knock on my window at the dead of night and say "Come with me". I wanna ride motorbikes as fast as they go. I wanna sit on a roof with someone I admire and just talk while looking at the sky. But I can't.
I have very few friends - three at the most. Nowadays, kids my age only care about how pretty they are, or what they can afford, or who they're dating or what the next big TV series is. I don't know anyone that still reads books, or makes meaningful art, or simply wants an adventure.
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Hey girl, same here. My parents are very strict and damn I risked so much just to break out of that shell. I used to be so pure because I didn't know anything in the world but here I am, I know the stupid trends going on nowadays and just ordinary stuff people do nowadays. Get our your comfort zone. Trying out new things will feel weird and you'll get anxious sometimes because it's your first time!! Explore the real world, not some idealistic world that you live in created by your parents. Mine persuaded me that doing things that I wanted to do were bad for me but I realized that I was only living the way they wanted me to. Take the risks. Yes, you are going to change as a person but thats because you will be into find new interests.
Replybecause you will find new interests*
ReplyOh I'm to the same. I like to read books and write stories. I watch most of my favorite animes on youtube. Liked the spiderman bit.
ReplyBelieve it or not, lots of people are like this these days. When I was 16 I was the same as you. I lived in my own fantasy world waiting for it to become my reality. I had friends but I lost them due to some conflict. But I met a couple more people and I can also say that I only have about 3 friends. It's so much better to have close friends than expendable ones.
I'm 20 now. I'm not the same person I was 4 years ago, nor will you be when you reach this age. 16-19 are the years where you start to realise that tomorrow you could be a different person, and that's okay. It's the years where you take risks, you do really dumb shit and experience heartbreak, which again is okay. I did some pretty messed up stuff when I was 18. I was still living in my fantasy world and just didn't think about consequences. Don't be as stupid as I was, but don't be as laid back either.
I moved halfway across the world to study because why not? I book plane tickets to different countries every week because why not? I booked a concert next year in Paris of all places, just because I want to start living in a true reality. I'm turning my fantasy world into reality, and it takes a while but you will too. I promise that you will too.
The funny thing is, as amazing as my experience here is, I miss home. I miss really simple things like holding my ukulele or watching a shit movie with my parents. I miss having an oven (Asia has no ovens i stg its the worst) and being able to devour a bag of onion rings at 2am after another heartbreak. I miss how freaking cold it is in the UK.
My point is, you can live like all these people in movies and books. You can create your own amazing reality like I've done, but miss the smaller things. Take your time getting there, don't rush anything. I still love living in a fantasy world. I prefer it to my actual world. Just know that you're not in this alone, and you'll get to live life properly in a couple of years. I'm still not convinced life has begun for me either.
Good luck!
- R
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