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6 days ago · · 23andme,
Please? Help me with something that is simple and will cost you nothing but your time and consideration. I am desperate and you’re the only key to help. Not just for me, but for him. He hasn’t recovered. He struggles. PTSD. I need to help him...and selfishly, it prevents and preserves what I have with him. I don’t want to lose him same as I know you don’t want to lose what you have. And when I say lose, I mean it in the worst case sense of the word. He’s not good. Hasn’t been. He uses social media as most do—to fake the funk. Meanwhile, he continuously blames himself for what happened—feels that because of his inability to be disciplined (his words) that it led to my actions. No matter how much I tell him that’s not the case and that it was my doing, he won’t let it go. Years of therapy and still. Pain. The only way I can help him is to “undo” it. If I make up a story that changes the past for him so he can have a calmer present and better future.
I absolutely beg of you, please help me to help him! I know with all my heart and soul that if I change the story for him, it will change his mindset. But I will need confirmation from you at some point to make it really for him as you can imagine he’ll never believe just me after the talks had years ago. I will make it to where the story was to create the situation you needed for you on your end and that would be “why” I played along. It took the idea of my BFF (she is quite creative, and she’s come up with something that could very well work—but only sigh your help). Please?!
I will protect you. I promise you that. Please protect him...
And, if I’m being honest to protect myself. His anger and pain has taken over at times during drunken moments of pain. I have documented pics to prove this. And I don’t excuse his behavior, but I know his heart and I’ve hurt it. Yes, he’s hurt mine with similar situations in his past, but we don’t al have the same mental strengths and well, he’s been through things that we will never be able to understand. He’s getting help, but it’s not enough. I need to right this and the only way I know how is to take it away from him.
With all that said, once I’ve done the undoing on my end, he will need to somehow hear that I was merely a pawn of sorts to have things work out the way you needed to on your end. He won’t care to know details, but I know he will care to hear that we never slept together ever and that it was just an emotional situation.
I know this probably sounds so far from anything you’d every expect or what to hear from me, let alone request of you, but I am seriously so scared and desperate and I truly with al my heart and soul want to ease his pain. It’s not as simple as just letting him go, because he doesn’t want to let go of us, and neither do I (hence, the therapy) but his suffering needs to end. I’ve thought for over a year now if there’s other ways. Nothing is working. He has literally said nothing will change the fact that I slept with you...but I know together we can change that for him. She won’t have to know anything and won’t. He doesn’t care about anything but what has transpired between you and me—to the point of not being able to move past it. We are capable of having fun and doing everything that a couple can and should do, but when the fun times and distractions settle, his pain surfaces and takes over.
I absolutely beg of you. Please help me to help him. I will do whatever it takes to help him. Please?