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For as long as I can remember, my house has been disgusting. I didn't see it as bad back then, and to be honest, it wasn't too bad at that point. Sure, there were some clothes we needed to take to Goodwill and some old furniture in the garage that needed to go, but it wasn't horrible. We were able to have people over. And if we spent a fair portion of our time cleaning, we could even host a family event like Christmas.
I'm not sure when that changed, but it sure as hell did. My home is now almost unlivable. Mold at the top of the walls in the bathroom from the steam. Piles of unwashed dishes. Random papers covering the floor. Our dining room, we can't even use it because of the piles of old clothes and other random shit. Mice, bugs, all that shit. It seems like an impossible task for a 12 year old and her 14 year old sister. That with a 49 year old mother who is too depressed to do anything, and I can't help but feel bad for her. She sounds so ashamed, and so am I. She just wants us to be happy, but she can't even make herself happy.
I feel so fucking scared someone will see the inside of our house one day. I make excuses for why friends can't come over, and have actually never had friends over. I've never told a single soul. I'm sure my sister feels that same shame and sadness. One day, I'll end up with social media. How will I explain why I can't show them my room? Or just my house? I just don't know what to do.
If they do find out, what will they think of me and my family? It's so humiliating. I've been told by friends that they see me living in a super clean, tidy house; I can't live up to that. It makes me wanna cry when people say that stuff, because I almost feel like I'm lying to their faces. How can I help my family and myself get better? I feel so hopeless.
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Baby girl, I want to tell you it's okay, but I don't know. I don't know why your mom is acting the way she does and it's not for me to judge. The first thing that I think needs to happen is your mother needs to come to the right mindset because as far as I can understand, she is not in her right mindset. You might need to reach out to other family members or close relatives if it's interfering with your life. Also your friends... From my experience, middle schoolers (ages 12-14) aren't the nicest and they don't understand that things may be different in other households. I understand that you feel ashamed but I think it time you put that aside for now and focus on how to get your home back again. I strongly suggest reaching out for help among family members. I don't necessarily know how I can help but that's most of the knowledge I can give you. I know it's hard at your age to go through events like these. Hopefully, everything goes well. Sending my prayers to you and your family 🧡
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